Scared and Alone
The alarm goes off and I roll over groaning. The bed is clean and warm, the night has gone by too fast. It takes a minute but my mind slowly recognizes that I, Leilani live on Planet Earth. =0) I then become aware that it is another morning that I awaken alone. The relationship that I had been in for the past 8 years recently came to an end and I find myself fighting back the pulse rising feeling of fear that is slowly taking over my body. My thoughts flip to another time I felt the same feeling.
IT was another normal day at the Bay for me. It had been a couple of weeks since my BIG DOLPHIN ecounter and I was in the bay swimming and swimming , just playing like I usually did. I thought I heard dolphins so I looked up and across the water. What I saw startled me. HUNDREDS of DORSAL FINS! I felt pulse rising fear start in my stomach and slowly start to make its way to my throat. I remember thinking, "If these are NOT dolphins, my life is about to end."
I was all alone out there in the middle of the bay and I was scared. As they got closer to me I recognized them as dolphins and THEN.. the hairs on my arms started to stand up. As this huge pod of dolphins swam towards me their sonars were scanning me to see what I was and if I was a threat to them. My whole body felt their scrutiny and it was MAGIC. I started crying, tears streaming down my face and I felt pure joy well up in me.
Three feet away from me now, they parted right down the middle. Dolphins swam past me on the right, dolphins swam past me on the left. Brown eyes looked at me in surprising awareness and I was overcome with complete and total awe! I remember lifting my head upwards , and laughing so loud I think I scared the dolphins! Surely they thought I was a little off! =0)
Back to the present , smiling i climb out of bed and head for the coffee maker. My feeling of fear is gone and has been replaced by a light spirit and a lighter heart. Fear can be good , it keeps me safe. Shining a light on my fear can be MAGIC.
Living in the Light......